Eyes Wide Open...

Wow it has been 12 days since my last post. I was really trying to keep on top of this. Lets see, 

Oct. 27th

Family day. We went to Salt Lake and spent time with Jeremy's side of the family both his mothers' and dads' side. It was fun and nice. We realized it gets hard to socialize with everybody. We got home and were bummed that we didn't socialize much with Jeremy's sister. That was a bummer. We miss her lots and love our times when we get to see her and the family! Dinner was very yummy and after. We traveled back home to Idaho.

Oct. 28.

We woke up late for church but at least made it to Sacrament. The rest of the day was pretty much relaxing and enjoying time with one another.

Oct. 29 and 30.

 was back to the grind of work, we missed hanging out with our friends that Monday because the hubby had to work late.

Oct. 31.

 I was sick, totally not fun. I also craved Halloween Cupcakes and so my honey came home with some it cheered me and my taste buds up but definitely made my stomach mad.

Nov. 1.

I woke up and ate a banana (BIG MISTAKE) I will never do that again when I have a stomach bug. My stomach hurt I was curled up in a ball calling my boss to let her know I would need one more day. Danielle later that evening brought over some delicious dinner. I was able to eat it, and keep it down. Her chili is delicious!

 Nov. 2.

Friday I was back to work, tired and slow, but I was there.


Nov 3.

Hubby and I spent some time together, we went and checked out if renewing out costco membership would be worth it. We checked out a house that was for sale its fun to see what is out there (No we are not looking to buy any time soon). We talked about school and looked into briefly where we would like to try to go. Then we relaxed a bit before he went to work.

Nov 4.

Church this morning was good and very enlightening. We went to Danielle's for dinner it was delicious! That was about the fun of our day.

Nov 5.

Called BYU Idaho and got some answers. Had to wait for an adviser to call me back because they were busy with registration... was feeling pretty good about it. Work, and then spent some time with our friends and their children, then came home and study the election stuff until we just couldn't look at it anymore!

Nov 6.

Woke up. Found out BYU Idaho offers the program I want, just not the way I want it. Only considered a minor. I would get a certificate of completion but its not like a technical certificate, at least that is how the advisor made it sound and so it was back to looking into more colleges. I then got ready, and left to make our Vote count. Felt good about it all day. To bad we are still stuck with the same person and know that the next 4 years are just going to be more hell. Yes I said hell, cuz it will be!

Nov 7th

Called College of Southern Idaho, was disappointed, and so I went back to looking into Le Cordon Bleu and there program. They are supposed to be a really good College. They are in Portland,  Oregon though. Called my husband about all the exciting news. Though we were both down pretty much all day because of the election.

Here we are today. There is so much going on in my head. Obama being President sucks butt! I have my reasons for saying this. Both Jeremy and I work for small business companies. My boss yesterday did not hesitate nor stumble over any words, when talking about depending how things go within the next year/s or so we could end up having to shut down. I love my job, I love where I work, and finding jobs here is, well,  really hard to do, especially with no degree. My husband and I have been working on getting debt paid off, we really want to be debt free. With Obama's re-election that goal got more serious.

My husband and I both play WoW (World of Warcraft) Its pretty much our entertainment during the winter months. It however is a luxury expense we are now cutting out. I joined Weight Watcher's. I have done really well on it. Lost 10 lbs and counting. I just cancelled it this morning. We are part of a train club. We just changed out status to inactive. By the end of next month, we will be shutting off our internet.

These are all pretty big changes. We enjoy every single one of these things we currently have, and have been blessed to have. But we want to be debt free more then we want these things. While cutting them have kinda become  a necessity, its actually more of a want. It feels good. We are actually working towards a goal together, as we always are and are serious about it as we always are. I know we will achieve this task. :)

Maybe having Obama re-elected was a good thing, for my husband and I to get better prepared. Whatever the case we are trying to make the best of it.

In other official/unofficial news I have made a decision!!!!

I am going to get my degree in Culinary Arts. I am going to attend Le Cordon Bleu... thats the official news lol. The unofficial news is we intend to move to Portland, Oregon. Don't know when. I can say definitely not before we are debt free. I can't even say that is the plan soon. I can say however that, that is going to be a goal.I am excited and Blessed that I have a husband who fully supports this decision too and is excited for me!

Well that is about it.

Ciao for now. 

Winter morning for sure!

So last night I went to bed, but just before doing so my loving husband was like "Honey, its snowing and pretty good, its stuck to the ground" Me: "squeals, then runs to find jacket and shoes so I can go out and get pics of it" Never crossed my mind that it was dark.. but well here the pics are:

So that was my fun exciting adventure last night. Then this morning the bed felt oh so cozy and warm and yeah, me getting up was so not happening. Except I looked at the time and was like, oooohhhh my friends are going to be here,  I gotta get ready and clean! So that is what I jumped up to do but first I had to do one thing, Can anyone guess what it was??


I had to run and check for myself if the snow stayed, so I hurried to put on a jacket and shoes and ran out the door to find that it .... well you can just see for yourself,

That white car by the way in the first picture, was given to us graciously by my parents its an old car and this is the first time its ever, ever seen snow... :) I sent a picture to my dad just to make him happy that his "Betsy" Got her first Snow experience lol...

So after that I got ready and hung out with two amazing women and we chatted and learned more about eachother and laughed and it was uber fun. After they left I was still doing the happy dance, but then wasted some time on facebook and eventually calmed down after like an hour or so.

Then I cleaned up house and started dinner, for my wonderful, hard working husband. Now I am blogging to all of you about it... although I am about to get off of here and finish cooking dinner.. Just thought I would share a little bit of my day.

Happy Friday all.. hope to chat again, maybe on Sunday.

Oh and thanks for taking your time to read  :) 

Thursday, One more day and I am off... well hopefully....

Man this has most definitely been a week for the books let me tell you. I have never gotten on my knees and prayed as hard as I did in this last week in over a year I would have to say. My days have definitely turned around since doing so though, let me tell you.

Its funny Sunday in Gospel Principles our lesson was on praying to our Heavenly Father... I really think that was like the prequal to my week let me tell you.. I so needed that lesson before this last week, and I am so blessed for it as well.

Anyways, I thought I would post on my blog this morning because I am so proud of my hard work, and the fact that I was smart enough to photo the progress. I have been struggling with weight loss for a very very long time. I had a pretty rough child hood and I think I just turned to food as a comfort and man it most definitely got me in trouble. I never ever want to have to go through this again. So back to my smartness.. this week I have been like sitting on the fence on whether or not I am really progressing or just imagining that I have been.. today I decided I was going to take a picture, and then I remembered I had taken a couple other pictures of when I started hitting the gym. So I decided to post them on facebook, and look at them side by side to really see it for myself. Now I am blogging about it because I am just ecstatic and want to get my thought out.. This weight loss is such hard work, Its funny how it takes more work to loose the unhealthy fat, then it did to put it on... Amazing the things you learn.

So here I was March 1, 2012 4 days before I joined Gold's Gym.

This is me in July of 2012 Just after my now husband proposed :) 

And this is me as of today October 26,2012 

What Progress! Makes me want to run and jump and do a lot more!!!!

HAPPY DANCE!

Anyways, I am going to continue with updates like this... at the end I will just post One big blog with all of the before and after pics... it's going to be awesome... Maybe I will scrapbook it just so that I can remember that I never ever want to look the way I looked on March 1st of 2012 again.... But this isnt even all of it... I really wish I had a picture of how I looked in September of 2011 Because at that time I weighed 268 lbs... *shutters to think it* I will never be that weight again I promise that!

That is all this post was really for this morning... Maybe ill find something to share with later... Happy Thursday all!

Finding something, anything to be positive about today...

and so far failing miserably. Sure I can be positive that I cleaned my kitchen and reorganized it, that my living room looks like a living room and not well.. "lived in" but there was a reason most of these things were accomplished this morning, and no not really because they needed to, because yes they needed but any way so far that reason is non existent. I know, I know I am being rather vague. I have a reason for that really I do. It is just so FRUSTRATING!!!!.

Oh and to top it off I printed off coupons this morning, WHY? I have no clue... not like I am going to get to use them... I guess because secretly it made me feel good inside to just do it... :-/. So yeah if any one wants them they're sitting here on my desk! Oh and did I mention I used up the last, and I mean every last drop of Ink I had on these stupid coupons.. LAME RIGHT?!?!

I'm basically just ranting on and on ... I really have nothing to say this morning.. Just feels good to talk to myself.. lol I guess its not really talking to myself when others can read it..

I desperately just need to stay home today and cuddle up with a good book under a blanket with some hot cocoa or warm honey lemon water or something just so I can feel some kind of I don't know ... normalcy i guess... Lol but then again what in the world is normal.

I wish my husband were home with me.. I usually never ever feel this way but the last like day or so have just been to exhausting for words.

Oh well... guess ill watch netflix, before I go to work. Hope everyone has a good Tuesday... Maybe I'll post later... Doubt it...something would have to happen to do that.. cuz really this is just how I feel today...

Fall Is upon us... Or should I call it winter???

At any rate I have lots of updates... well really just one big one. I got married September 15,2012. It was thee most happiest day of my entire life!  Here is a photo of my special day! 

Isn't he handsome?

At any rate it was a beautiful day, and our small ceremony was just perfect!

The week before my wedding I found out my aunt was sick, she passed away 4 days before my wedding day to cancer. CANCER is EVIL!!!  So in honor of her 3 days after my wedding I  cut my hair to donate to Locks of love. Here are the before and afters: 

So this is the new me for a while... I hope it grows back fast though.. I really miss my long hair. But its a selfless act to be able to donate something so small. Im thinking I may want to do this more often.. but Im going to let my hair grow out like a lot. Maybe down to my lower back so that way i can still have long hair.. we shall see. 

So today I had a pretty cruddy day. Just normal day to day life crap. Go to work, get paid, money all gone on bills blah blah blah wash rinse repeat. Its rather getting old. I have so many crafts I want to do, and cooking and just yeah. Why do hobbies have to come at a price I mean really. Lol. Then come to find out the program I wanted to go to school for is no longer offered at the one and only local college in this town. So that Just added to the whole depressing dreary cloudy wet day that we had. 

Then the thought crossed my mind that I have a natural knack for taking photos. I don't mean of myself just in general.. I can find beauty in all things, some sort of artistic view yada, yada, I have a really good Camera too! I also thought that its very relaxing. To just be looking at the beautiful nature that is all around us. Believe me right now with my stresses I could really use this to just unwind. So I think Im just gonna go have fun with it. Bonus to all of it, its a digital camera.... I can print the picture at a later time :) Score! 

So after this very long stressful, sad, depressing day there has been some hope... lol kinda funny to say since my Aunts name is Hope. I got to talk to her this evening. I love her, that made me feel better, just to talk to family. My cousin texted me today to to tell me that she loved me and missed me. Made me feel good, I thought I had upset her..somehow, some way.. it had been a while since the two of us had talked. It felt good just to hear those simple words. My new friend Mady and I are going to hang out this week.. I am excited for that. And although money is uber uber tight, I deserve a small treat so my friend Nicole and I are going to go for Ice Cream. I'm excited haven't seen her in a hot minute either. There is always positive around us and I love the comfort in knowing that. 

The seasons come and the times change, One thing I can say even with the holidays coming up is that I am blessed. I have new friends, old friends, and friends still to come, I have a loving husband who understands me, my needs, and supports me in all that I do, I have an awesome family! They are encouraging, and uplifting. That is all I need. 

This last weekend in church I remember the bishops wife in relief society talk about how there is materialistic things in life, that often we get jealous of others for being able to have, but you can't take them with you when you go.. Now im not quoting her verbatim but you get my drift.  I needed to hear that on Sunday. I didn't know that I needed to hear it, but today more then ever I promise you is an example of why I needed to hear that. In then end I can count my blessing and know that all I need is my family and friends, anything beyond that is just stuff. Stuff that of course offers happiness but only for a short time. Family and friends are forever!

Ive talked a lot. I needed to!! I feel good and uplifted to this day that most definitely could of been better. My boss is right challenges in your life do make you humble. I don't like this challenge I am going through, we are going through right now.. but already I feel the humbleness she was teaching me about this afternoon. I love my boss, I love my work, I love my life, and all that comes with it. 

I leave you this to read, to enjoy to ponder on, to love me more for, or to not lol.. at any rate.. just know that I am grateful for any and all who may read this :)

Wow I suck!

I haven't posted on here in quite sometime, how lame is that. Well things have been crazy, I keep getting sick from being around little kids at work lol. I finally started school! I'm currently reading two books. One is The Total Money Makeover by Dave Ramsey and the other is Eat Pray Love. I love the Total Money Makeover it is a life savor!!!! Literally!! If you haven't gotten it or read it, do yourself, your family, and your spouse a favor and get the book! It has helped me open my eyes and make changes so drastically it is one of the best books I've actually taken the time to read. As for Eat Pray Love I am just getting started with that so I have no comments yet. I also have a collection of more books to read so that I can better myself. Plus I find it to be a fun recreation.

As for everything else in my life.. Well I joined the gym. Its paid off Ive lost 4 lbs and hopefully more this week. Ive been keeping up with friends, and like I said I started school. I am on this road to the new me and I am so loving it! By the way I have no idea how you post a pic to the blog just in case I ever want to lol... Maybe some one some day can tell me how lol. At any rate sorry to be brief but I have some reading to do. I will try to post something more informational, and fun to read soon!

Have a good day!

What a busy February

This month has been pretty crazy, if I do say so myself. I think I am finally getting this money thing situated, it feels so good to be paying off bills. I however have failed horribly at my goal to only eat out twice this month.. the Friday I had to go to work early and then valentines night of course! So its back to the grind of getting that on track, its just so hard when its so convenient and easy to just go through a drive through and pick something up or you just get that craving... but I just have to remember that its not good for me and to only use it as a treat every now and then.

So Valentines this year for me was amazing, more then it ever has been in the last well id say 10 years. Pretty sad huh? It was very pleasant. I started off the morning with Heart attacking the house with words I put onto hearts to express my love for the one I admire so much right now in my life. Followed by having his gift wrapped and neatly sitting on the couch where he sits at night. We just snuggled and laughed and talked before dinner, and it was just really pleasant. We left to go to dinner, and such a gentlemen he is he opened the door for me to the car, and on my seat was a little red bear dressed as a devil holding a heart that said love. Under the heart was a white and black box. In that box was a very pretty necklace the charm on it was a red heart and it had little horns and a tail. On the tail has a diamond.. cutest ever! Ill try to post pictures of it later!. As we were driving he put on a cd with love songs it was amazing. We went to Texas roadhouse for dinner..so yummy! For the first time we both tried Fried Pickles, which I know sounds odd but they were actually delicious.. definitely not something I would order all the time but an occasional treat is nice. Dinner was good and the rest of the evening was very relaxing!

I'm happy to say I have paid off a total of 3 Bills, with two more being paid off this coming weekend. :) That makes me so happy. They aren't really major but more of pains in the butt, but still excited to of gotten that far.

I managed for my three day weekend to get sick, and still feel like crap today. Hoping however that tomorrow I will feel somewhat better.

That's pretty much all that's new in my world... Sorry I've been slacking at this whole blog thing but hopefully it will pick up soon!